In the spaces between the seasons of our lives, lie powerful shifts. Times where some things come together, and others fall apart. When all we can do is trust in the unknown, and hope that the universe can feel our hearts or hear our hopes.
These can be magical times, filled with possibility and potential. They can serve as energetic buffers as we realign with our truth in the moment. They can also end up feeling somewhat chaotic, as though we are being sucked into a current and all we can do is move with the flow to keep ourselves afloat.
Change used to make me feel like I might drown. As I craved control, the thought of surrendering was riddled with fear and distrust. After fighting against the current time and time again, I’ve become better acquainted with the art of surrender. As well as the beauty and necessity of it.
Although it may still be a challenge, I can now see the purpose in even the most uncomfortable parts of the process. Feeling the grief, integrating after release.
Moving us from a time of assertive direction into a time of listening, following the flow, letting go of the need to know. Leaving space for the gentle whisper of our own intuition to sing it’s song through our soul.
This post has been a year in the making. Each season and transition has swept me away with it’s beauty yet also felt like an initiation into greater depths and on to greater heights.
Beginning in Spring/early Summer of 2021 when I parted from a job that gave me security during the pandemic. I felt a bittersweet sense of relief to say goodbye. Although it may have only been a part time cleaning job, what I took away from it resonated through my life in many different ways.
Clarity, compassion. The two lovely souls I worked for taught me a lot about acceptance. They showed me the purpose and power in gifts and lessons I hadn’t yet found value in. For example, like the vulture - cleansing space and energies. My natural urge to refine, and find efficiency in all that I do. Opening up my heart to greater levels of patience understanding and respect through many kinds of conversation and interaction.
It was quite a deep and lonely time for me. One where I felt lost and stagnant, but it also kept a small fire burning within me, one that reminded me not to settle, that this was not the end of the road but simply a part of the journey. I had to keep trusting, to start dreaming, and work towards the life I truly wanted to live. I’m glad we could offer each other the support we needed at that time, and I’m happy to hear the flower parting gift I gave them is still doing well. :)
After a profound autumn period I found myself being taken down into the depths of the underworld. Asked to confront the truths hidden within the depths of my being. Things I knew were lingering in my energetic field but that I hadn’t yet felt safe or comfortable enough to let rise.
I felt it all. The fear, the fear of feeling it all, the sadness buried deep, the worries riddling my mind. Everything I’d been resisting, willing my judgement to keep it at bay.
As I finish writing we are in the midst of a new year. After now releasing another job, I feel an old skin shedding with it. Relief, grief, sadness, frustration, confusion. But it doesn’t feel wrong. And when I ponder on my current dreams and give voice and life to them, I begin to see..
It was always meant to be this way. These experiences, this place, this time.
It created space for things I wanted, things I needed. To return home. To family, long term friends, my DOG. To sit in the space for a moment, create. Work on the blueprint for what I wish to share with you, in a way that feels accessible to me and hopefully to you too.
At the beginning of 2021 I started to gain clarity on the work I desire to share. Throughout the year I began honing it, living it, stepping in. The structure of my seasons began to show themselves and the foundation for the way in which I will bring it to you has uncovered itself with every shift and self discovery.
I feel ready now to bring it all together. A small guide to prompt a connected relationship with the seasons of your life. Practicing holding it all, moving with it, letting it go. Stepping out of what no longer serves and into what does. Adjusting your lifestyle and mindset to allow for the ebbs and flows and trusting in the surrender.
This transition feels like a combination of both a dance with the unknown and a ride of chaos. But there’s a feeling of wholeness bringing me faith. I’m excited to see what I am about to co-create with the universe. Although I know what wants to rise, it will be beautiful to watch how it all unfolds.